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Its All Coming Back To Me

They say that every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Now some purist might just pounce upon me and question why or how dare i refer " Sir Isaac Newton" as a relative pronoun. But the point is, its not physics that I am talking about . Rather the matter that intrigues me is the fact that how come life gives a chance to everyone to get even. Yes call it destiny, or misfortune for some, but the gains made by one is always at someone else's expense.
Success is fleeting. Status is even more vague. For these never lasts just as long as you would like them to be. Its a easier up-shift rather than climbing down the stairs in society , but when you are sometimes pushed up, its inevitable that you would surely be grounded sooner or later.
The facts that have inspired me, ranges far in the plains of Africa. I saw a Pride Of Lions on discovery. A Pride of Three lionesses , A Lion and their bunch of six month old cubs. The fact that these scenes were not fleeting as any other program would generally be , was because I was forced to think. Think beyond my existence in the current port folio. The cubs, innocent, mischievous yet arrogant to try and molest Warthogs thrice their size, just for they know, one step wrong and Mommy will protect...
From protection comes security and from security comes confidence and from confidence comes over confidence and when the protection is lost, only the higher rungs of confidence remains without the support below.
It's the story of all common men and women. Exceptions are in plenty yet for commoners like me, I surely can draw conclusions.
I am unsure of the next three months. Leaving my destiny at stake over exams ranging from 2- 6 hours. quite small to decide life, but thats the way to go about it.
May be the cheers of life will remain, but the port folio will change.
Now what remains to be seen, is that if relations are Port Folio dependent. My gut tells me yes, but without practical basis I rather not comment.
Its a matter of time when the other facades of life will crop up. Show me newer pathways. The pastures may not be the greenest around, but I am not quite able to choose according to my own self, so lets have it the way it comes.
I call myself Panacea, pride you might call, but it simply is confidence... But i do not know why I do not feel like calling myself by that name in the recent past. Is it port folio or confidence which I have lost , is a hazier question. But something tells me Redemption is on its way.... A radical change will soon take over.. And Its my humble request to my own brain in believing that " In the End It Doesn't Even Matter" about the people around you, all it takes is yourself, your existence or rather the grandeur of existence that defines relations, respect and surely confidence (in this case of "oTHERS") . But the irony is my heart is adamant to believe otherwise.......

Shine On... This time it's for me rather than all of you!!!

Comments

Nowhere Man said…
So very true.......
Amrita said…
d name Panacea bcums ol d more relevant...yes i thnk v r ol goin thru dis uncertain phase now..straight out of d cocoon of skul lyf..evrythin else seems ol d more intimidatin but i blev "d remedy 2 ol problems" lies vithin us...
Amrita said…
From protection comes security and from security comes confidence and from confidence comes over confidence and when the protection is lost, only the higher rungs of confidence remains without the support below.
as u said abov....dis statement has a strikin connection 2 our lives..as i sed..as long as v were livin under d maternal care of skul lyf..v had security even if it meant gettin disgusted by d intervention of d teachers in our care-free lives..but ..2de even d reprimand of d teachers seems a lot distant n endearin 2 me ..now dat i'm on d verge of givin up my safe haven n embrace "uncertainty" forcefully...it is sed procastination is 1 of d major reasons dat leads 2 d downfall of mankind..but at dis stage i wish i cud delay my tryst vit destiny until d tym ..i was prepared ...rather confident bout d onslaught
Butterfly said…
Reading your posts, I marvel at the fact that even a single person can always think so much into the depth of everything. Keep up the good job.:-)

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